things we say: a poem

"I'm doing just fine, I'm doing just fine,
I tell myself so I can soak up the lie.
I'll be alright, I'll be alright,
I repeat until I don't want to cry.

I'm hanging in there, I'm hanging in there,
But the truth is I'm going nowhere.
I really don't care, I really don't care,
I hide the truth so that I can bear.

I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm okay,
Over and over these words I say.
Go away, go away, go away,
I scream inside but I hope you'll stay.

I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired,
Fighting in the cold puts out my fire.
I don't feel well, I don't feel well,
Not my body but my mind I quell.

I'm doing just fine, I'll be alright;
These lies help us sleep at night.
I'm hanging in there, I really don't care,
But all we truly want is to be there.

I'm okay, you can go away;
Things we say to keep friends at bay.
I'm tired, I don't feel well,
You try smiling when your mind is hell"

©  Girl of Nowhere, 2016